I have shared a little bit about some of the things that have been going on in my life with you here on RWS, but there are also things I have yet to divulge. Some have been going on awhile and also a couple of “new developments.” I will share when I feel the time is right, but now is not that time.
One thing I have shared is my health issues as of late. First the sea sickness patch withdrawals, and now some heart issues. I got a Holter monitor yesterday, and get to take it off today and am also getting an echocardiogram today. The Holter basically monitored my heart for 24 hours with little electrodes stuck all over my chest and sides. Check it out.
There is one on each side, one right below my bra line then two above. Didn’t think it would be appropriate to show those. Hopefully I will get some answers soon. Also as I sit here and type, I am icing my foot/arch. Not sure what caused this one, or if it has to do with the calf pain I experienced at the Jazz Half marathon. (By the way thanks for all your suggestions! I will be wearing compression socks for Wine and Dine, won’t take GU Roctane with 2x’s caffeine, and will stretch really well….and may wear different shoes, just to experiment.
Anyway, I have had a couple of hard weeks where issues just seem to keep piling up one after the other. I would be lying if I said I react correctly to these things every time. My natural, human reaction is to freak out, cry, and ask God why he is allowing these things to happen. Eventually, once I get the initial anger and frustration out, I am able to slowly look at things from a different perspective. It’s very difficult for me to do, because by nature I tend to look at the worst case scenario.
I have once again attempted to do what I KNOW I need to do (but it’s sssooo hard!) and that is give it over to God, and stop worrying about it. Anxiety isn’t doing anyone any good, and won’t solve any problems. I know, I know….easier said than done.
There have been times….I am ashamed to admit how many, where I have just felt like giving up. Where staying in the bed and covering my head in hopes that it would all just go away seemed like a good idea. I am aware that this is silly and not an ideal way to live life, but the thought has definitely crossed my mind. So, after a lot of praying, I have decided you DO have a choice. Give up, or get up.
I am choosing to make it THAT simple. You can use get up in any sense of the word that fits your life. Get out of bed, get out the door on a run, get up and go to work, get up emotionally and change your attitude, etc. I am not a quitter when it comes to the physical sense, I think I have proven that to myself. Now it’s time to prove just how mentally tough I am.
1 Peter 5:7: Cast all your anxieties on Him, because He cares for you.
Are you feeling discouraged? Remember this. Everyone will feel disappointments in life, but you can CHOOSE not to be discouraged by them. You can choose to change your attitude, you can choose to be joyful no matter the circumstances, and you can choose how you respond to adversity. So what will you choose? Will you give up, or GET UP!!
I’m GETTING UP and going to try to go for a run today after my cardiologist appointment. Then I need to GET UP and clean the house!
QOTD: What helps you when you are feeling discouraged?
I’m so sorry to hear you’re going through this right now, but your attitude is so very inspiring!!! I’m sending so many prayers and happy thoughts in your direction! Hope all goes well at the doctor!! when I’m discouraged I pray and try my best to search for the positive in the situation! Hang in there!! Spa <3
thanks! You are very kind. 🙂
sending you my thoughts…we went through the monitor etc here with the husband.
thanks lady. the monitor is no bueno.
thanks lady. the monitor is no bueno.
I’m sorry that you’re experiencing all these problems however you are correct in 1 Peter 5:7. Know that you are in inspiration to all!
thanks for the encouragement!
What an encouraging way to handle everything! Praying for you!
thanks!
Great attitude and perspective! It seems to me that feeling discouraged just takes time. I eventually get passed it and move on. I wish I had a better answer.
you are so right. when it’s fresh it’s tough!
I sure hope they can figure out what’s going on. Do you think the foot pain could be plantar fasciitis? I’ve been battling that one for coming up on a year, even ended up in PT mine was so severe and what I found was that there are triggerpoints in your calf…calf tight can cause foot problems too. Just a thought….Take care of yourself!
I have thought about it, but it’s just in my arch, not worse in the morning, etc. But it’s possible. Going to try compression socks and going back to more supportive shoes.
I hate that you are going through all of this Heather! You’re doing the right thing by giving it all to God! He’s the only one who can help you through it…and yes it is easier said than done. I’m praying for you girl!
thanks friend!
I’m so sorry to hear that you have had one thing after another…but you’re right…He is in control!!
I am sorry things have been so rough. It will get better. This too shall pass. I find that when I let myself feel down, sad, frustrated, upset for a day or two, THEN pick myself up, start thinking more positive and yes, leaving the rest to God that things do get better.
At least after a couple of days you have a better perspective of what’s going on. You can regroup and figure out the best solution.
Hang in there!
thanks. I can usually refocus after a couple days, but it hasn’t been easy!
Sending you hugs and thoughts! If you ever wanna talk ticker troubles, I am your gal! xoxox
haha I know! You poor thing.
So sorry to hear you’ve been struggling. Keep your head up, it sounds like you have a good perspective on things. When I’m feeling discouraged I turn inward, write out my feelings, treat myself, find the motivation that I know is in there deep down
writing it out is def good!
I am sorry about your medical issues, having gone through some of that stuff with my wife and myself, I have some understanding and empathy for what you are thinking. However, there are no choices for someone like you – you will not give up, you will do what you need to do to get through this – that I know from having read your writing for this past year.
There is no try, there is only do – Yoda Wisdom
So go do! No excuses, no whining, just do.
haha my husband says the yoda thing a lot!
You’re such an inspiration girl!!! I know things get tough, and why does it always seem they get tough all at once? But you’ve got this. It is a constant mental choice. When things get tough for me I call a time out and reflect on the things in life i’m thankful for!
good idea! thanks!
How horrible! I went through a period a few year ago where they thought I was having heart problems, or seizures, or some brain something… so I had all sorts of tests done and even had a halter monitor that matches yours exactly. It was horrid. Very depressing and I am so sorry you are in that now. However, the testing was good because I got a lot of answers. Hope you learn what is going on.
i hope they figure out whats wrong. you are in my thoughts and prayers!
I am so sorry you are going through so much. I am praying for you. One thing I have learned is that trials will come. Daily it seems! We can choose to walk through them frustrated and overwhelmed or we can walk through them holding the hand of Christ. You are hurting but you are here:)
Anything that has to be hooked up to your body gets a big fat “ugh” from me. Been there, done that. It does pass, though, not always as quickly as we’d like, but our timing isn’t perfect; His is.